dear God =)

assalamualaikum,

ok, its really been awhile since the last time i update this blog.

haha.

nothing much happen to this life actually.

just feeling that this sem's result is going to be sucks.

yup2.

definitely. 

studio or theories. they're just the same.

sigh.

its my loss.

haha.

neway. insyaAllah.

there's a beginning after each fall.

well i did learnt lots of things this sem.

i've moved on.

suddenly,

i've met a person.

and i wanted to stay with her.

dear God,

please show wether its my final say or not,

fullstop.

dear God.

i hope, really hope,

if u ever listen to my prayers,

please grant me some of happiness into my life.

give me success, its not for me,

but its for them, my parents.

i would love to see them crying happiness because of me.

i just miss those moments.

please God.

if you ever listen to my prayers,

please, help me walk through the storms.

i know im such a weak creature,

that's why i seek help from you.

dear God,

this is my last wish,

please keep me on track,

i dont want to loose myself,

i dont want to be takbur,

i just wanted to be me.

amin, ya robbal a'alamin.

these prayers is not just for me, its for all of those who read this post.

may Allah blessed his light upon us.

this picture was taken at my aunt's house, during her open house.

this shot just show me how complex the God's creation actually.

Subhanallah. =)

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bila aku down..

assalamualaikum.. wbt..

bismillahirrohmannirrahim..

erm.. lame aku tak bukak blog ni. aku bukak je but aku tak terupdate la pulak. haha. but today agaknye memang aku terpanggil untuk update kot. slalunye aku akan update bila aku down. takde perasaan. sakit ati. atau hepi gile. so. this time aku just nak luahkan ape aku rase.

klau ade yang rase aku ni just nak cte psl life aku. yap. klau tak suka. tak yah bace pun takpe. aku cuma terasa nak luahkan everything. aku tak harapkan sape2 pun baca.

so here goes, lately. idup aku mcm ayam. again aku ckp. mcm ayam. aku tak tau kenapa. dengan personal life aku. dengan hubungan aku dgn Dia di atas. dengan studies aku. everything seems soo kelam kabut. aku tak faham kenapa boleh jadi mcm ni. maybe ni ujian dari Dia. hmm..

aku tanak ckp pasal personal life aku. but aku nak bcakap tentang studies aku. i just got. 6 more weeks. 3 more weeks for my final. n aku pnye progress keje macam haram. dua2 crit aku tak perform. wth man??? aku tak tau dowh knape aku jadi mcm ni. aku tau aku bleh buat better than this but it seems like something holding me back. kadang2 aku rase nak mencarut je. aku pun tak tahu kenapa boleh jadi mcm ni.

ini adalah pesanan kepada kamu khairul nadzrin, yes, kamu, bangkit! mane diri kamu yg slalu wat keje ontime. slalu buat lebih dari requirement? yang selalu nak hepikan parents kamu... mane?? jangan takbur dengan dunia.. jangan lupa akan Dia.. jangan tinggal solat.. banyak kan baca Quran.. bangkit nadzrin!!! bangkit!! please.. u can do it!! jangan takut dengan bdak2 lain.. kau boleh!!! kau boleh!!

hmm.. insyaAllah.. aku akan try yang terbaik untuk diri aku. dan masa depan aku. aku nak keje bagus2. nak balas jasa parents aku. 

sekian.. aku nak mandi. terasa nak demam. 

p/s: adakah dia datang.. dia yang sebenar? hmmm..... =)

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